You did more than cause a fire in my lungs, although the idea that you did made me feel more alive, or maybe that feeling was fear. I didn't know if I liked that feeling, of not knowing. Maybe that caused the flood of anger. The flood of violence I was unaware of holding. Was I afraid of you doing me the way the rest? Or maybe it's my fate to be like them.. To hurt the ones I love. The ones I'm closest too. You treated me like a goddess. But all the love in the world could not cure my hurt and anger. You've always been there, maybe that's why I hate you so much.. You. The one that caused me all this feeling- Of love Of hate Of feeling mistreated by those I trusted. I was unaware of my deep hurt, I pushed it down, and you brought it up. I was a cracked window before you- And you making me feel, shattered me. A million peices. Trying to find out where they belong, and who they are.
I now feel that the fire in my lungs brought me to the burning rage I now am.