I have been knocking for a while
my knuckles are bleeding ,I broke a nail
and the neighbors are staring

i am confused

once you held me close to your chest and we smiled into each other
once you touched my hand and let my fingertips rub your arm
once i knew your scars and they did not matter

but today,
today i am standing outside in the rain and it is cold
today you pretend you are not home