skin... I have skin covering a heart hidden within I sacrifice nights sacrifice nights with you precious simple outings with you a little limelight with you darkened room sheets to move moving sheets to snuggle up with you open my eyes to my surprise was simply a lie in a dream but to you a reality damaged road fire burning distantly letting you go easily don’t know what to say I no longer feel the same I always hurt others silently maybe love to me is just a dream cause thats the one time it feels real to me so I break you down someone so kind get into your head study your mind thought I’d make you mine maybe again in another life maybe again next time under new light under a new condition a new rendition of a love that never was simply because someone like me doesn’t know yet what to do with themselves stab you in the back we’re on the same level putting myself on a brand new pedestal I could never ever try to play the part didn’t even know when to start made our love wash away and vanish in the midst of the dark what a broken human I’ve become to kiss another one just to not feel numb for one more second to not have to reckon that I’m secretly alone in my room full of thoughts try to decipher what works and what does not I always fall apart and I’m sorry for that my heart never healed from February’s heart attack I never was given the chance to repair and never found a guy since that truly seems to care you were a piece of the puzzle that didn’t seem to fit but you are a friend of mine, I admit a fresh start would be most ideal but I need time to heal from a rollercoaster of love that truly feels unreal someone like me doesn’t deserve others that waste time to eventually feel unloved I’m sorry for my vibes I’m sorry for trying I was simply only wanting someone who really wants me someone who really got me but I did what I did and played my role played the villain part I’m a selfish person with a very selfish heart