I stumble into the dark house holding a clothes basket and a backpack and marvel at how strange it is to be back. after two weeks in a warm place my short-covered legs are cold enough that i'm fearing mid-summer frostbite, and in the quest to prevent that, i see the small things i'd never notice- everything vaccuumed, swept, mopped and washed, all electronics- off, my brothers room- clean, mine- barren, the heaters- dusted, cobwebs- gone, bathrooms rugs and towels- matching, the mirror- clean of toothpaste splatter, and the bathroom counter empty. I smile as i change into pants thinking about how empty this house is without me; how empty it will be- without me