Then I'll be straight Saying it is an illusion or you are deluded Not what I see I know it seems hard to remember all the agreed to agree things before we were you's and I's there once only was what there was...so we forget to remember the fundamental of fundamentals but it's all in there somewhere beyond consciousness our busy brains one day by and by we go on anyway motion in motion still in motion with attachments and all those strings inter-dependency things should ring a few and many more bells by more here as well I just I just I know I know tossed upon such trips guided spells and I know I know its just as easy to say ya know ya know hahaha I know ya know but ya want me to spell it out like it were abc and 123 but see and be they are not required here there or anywhere I care to be I know I know and have I fear fear I fear like have we been here before have we not tried that **** and it aint so pretty and i'm not getting the point.. the point the point not pointedly but blunty it scared one brave crazy super sweet 'n tough brotha to one long road on the dark dark night of not a lost soul but of a soul just I don't know more like a zombie no heart could not feel a thing abject terrorization upon the torture dejours in some kind of darkness a little glimmer in the nightmare long tunnel of despair but too good taboo for this you...my own kids did i see angels three suffered every slight from heaven to be here on what they call some other earth but still i know here is the better place for heaven...they too are partners all and ya it's been a long road but hahaha I'm a trillion type light years time distance dollars one of beings matters not I am I am and am way down this page and few have dared like me I just keep on daring and daring beyond it, they all for they, it what did I say ha forgive me this way...take a quick back to the top what I know and what did I say; well and the filters having to with Shaman Master J; He worked with special permissions and that is another day for much is such about this and there were times where wounds and illness were for reasons not brought upon by one self alone in the local life as it were; but then there were the many times where the healing was granted and the words of the Shaman Master 'your sins are forgiven'; so then this was noted and it was asked why is it not simpler to say you are healed and the Master replied 'it is simpler to show the cause and effect and your own power'; yes here now very loose semi quotations but what I know is you know by night and by day, in darkness and light; what is love and hate; you have perfect judgement; you know what is judgmentalness; consciousness is your smaller reality as is what we see by light what we see by heart; know by heart and mind is servant on and on; we have agreed to agree on in my seeing and feel oh way to much for we suffer all unnecessarily; the holy grail is within each we are what some would say would be that cup; blessed be; WAKE WAKE SHAKE IT UP!!!!