I had that dream again
I remember just the white hall
And the windows were all dark
When you whispered "we are alone"
And I told you "I Know"

The dream where you debated dying
You were too little to remember
But that's ok, I am not sure that
I would want you to anyway

It was too familiar, like before.
The grain of the wooden door
And as it swung open on its hinges
I told you all was forgiven

You looked so scared.
Like you were  unprepared
But you were only five
Too young to decide to not be alive.

I was too slow.
I couldn't even scream
As I fell to me knees
With you in front of me

So now you know,
That was when I woke crying
And I couldn't stop from lying
When I said nothing was wrong
And I am the reason your dying.