I watched as your back arched inhumanly in every possible way, your spine seemed to be made out of gum yet your body was so tense, I touched you and felt the same exact way I felt when I hit the cold and hard surface of ice rink for the very first time except your body was burning hot, and your face was so pale and so shiny from the sweat you looked like a most morbid porcelain doll I've ever seen
Each second I anticipated for your head to start turning in full circles and I so badly wanted to press a crucifix against your skin and to exorcise you, to free you from embraces of the mightiest, but the only cross you ever believed in and feared was the shining green cross of the pharmacy
There were times when your pills made you feel heavenly, yet I was eternally put through hell