Refusing the dream a mortgage noose second job slavery or ******* half my wages away on a studio apartment I rent rooms in people’s homes though I’d rather live alone
I’ve lived with slobs and hoarders and paranoid cowboys packing six guns indoors tyrants and doormats weekend club hoppers couch potato cable junkies drunks workaholics ghost hunters and time vampires
Sometimes I stay in my room all weekend climb in and out of windows like a cat burglar oil my creaky door sneak to the fridge after dark avoid being cornered by bodies by faces wearing eager smiles by voices dull as butter knives sawing at my solitude
In my room I breathe easier when I hear them leave engine noise fading down the street I roam the house snoop at photos on walls bills piled on tables
And sometimes the women I meet think I’m a loser “Aren’t you a little old to have roommates?” one asked as we rolled in the driveway after midnight we went in the dog barked and out came the old man sagging flesh jiggling in tighty whiteys pistol in hand
She still ****** this loser (I’d rather be loser than slave) riding me in that twilight room mattress on the floor half hard whiskey **** fearing her prison tattoos coiled black snakes fading blue wrapping her torso she didn’t come back I’m probably lucky
Now I’m searching a new house to call home I shiver at the thought explaining myself to whatever strange tribe adopts this orphan grows to think of me as one of their own when I am not even mine