deep down, they
remember.
bitterness, happiness,
they choose to be
quiet. i usually do
the same.

i can't say much has
changed. i'm no better,
no more, no catch.
i spew or sparkle;
look twice, you'll change
your point of view.

i starve on purpose,
hold back, hide, drink to
death, back.
hold back, you can't starve
me further, i can ****
myself.
love. now there's a ******
up guy.
me, i'm nothing like him.
never illogical, never excited,
never
mind.