So Anxious
So tense but yet so numb
These feelings manifest out of regret, remorse and revenge
The confusion of ones weary mind drives one insane
As I continue the failing attempts of coping
There’s no more left
I want something Ill never have ; solace
The privilege of feeling complete
Whether I’m complete or not there’s always something missing
What is it
And why me ?
So guarded it’s almost impossible for one to have an open mind
No peace of mind
No shoulder to cry on
No tears left to cry
No heart left to love
No strength left to fight
No trust left to lead me astray once more
No more friends to leave my back sore
Everyday is a fight of prestige and condemnation amongst the painful memories engraved in my brain
Less than nostalgic; more than sentimental
The value of my existence just decreases with every hurting breathe I take.
I don’t want to be a lone body but that’s all I am
It’s all I ever be ; weakened flesh
Angry and bitter
Cringing at everything that seems to good to be true
For me … that is
What am I to do
Wait
Wait
Wait
And wait to acquire an expiration date
Nowhere is where I belong
I think this weeping willow is at the end of her song .