it hurts until it doesnt
one day ull be able to sleep fine and not think about her
ull be numb to the pain
numb and fine are the same thing
and i guess it goes to say its better to feel something than to not feel at all
but right now im in this bathroom and my head is spinning because i had a little too much to drink trying to erase u out of my mind
since the day u left there have been too many bottles left empty
too many glasses broken bc my shaky hands let go sometimes
and the glass breaking could be a metaphor for my heart but i never really liked metaphors
instead ill tell u my heart is broken like the glass on the floor
and i try to clean it up but my hands end up getting cut
and the room is spinning and my view is hazy and
i think im losing control
u used to be here helping me cope helping me see the sun in the cloud covered skies keeping me balanced bc ive always only been good at being clumsy and thats about it
so instead of falling for u again im going to sit on this floor and pour another drink
hopefully i dont drop it