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Jun 2018
You saw me see you across the room
Now my hands are sweaty, heart is shaking
And I have no idea what the hell I’m supposed to do

In my mind a thousand scenes play out
In every one I do the thing wrong
And for once I’m glad to see you swallowed by the crowd.

In that second that you’re gone the loss is overwhelming
A greater fear I’d never held but yours I’d hold until…

That second is eternity, can’t remember if my hearts still beating
Frozen in that lifetime since you’re gone


I ask around, was it just me?  Have I slipped into a perfect moment?
Or is my mind up to the same old tricks
And promising another night of torment

I can wait, though, pretend I was mistaken
I hadn’t really seen the face of an angel
I hadn’t thought about our life together, twenty years away

The children that we might have had, well, they all begin to fade.

But I can’t stop searching, nor will I ever
If I leave or look away and what if we were meant to be together

So I’ll sit here waiting til my heart begins to ache.

And there you are, I see you there
Chatting to that guy, I see
So our moment wasn’t good enough?
You don’t think I’m worthy of your love

Then I’ll leave, come on, mate, it’s time to go
We were dreaming thinking tonight would be good
What idiots we are, picking up in a bar
Who does that anymore?

Next pub it is then, this one is sour
**** heads aping on the dance floor
Feet sticking, the air is sweating
And all I talk about is her

I saw her across the room, you know
We had a real connection
It’s a shame, isn’t it, mate, in real life
It’s impossible to find affection

I’m drunk, my friend, and that girl
Where is she now?
If she were here, that girl
Where you at mate?  
I’m going home

But... it would be a shame, wouldn't it.  
If we get along, to have to sweep it all away
As if it never really mattered

The one thing in this world i can't have, it's regret
And if all it is, a futile friendship,
Who are we to throw it away like yesterday’s used heartbeat

See, I rarely connect, the majority are dumb and most are *******
You took me by surprise and just so happened to be packaged in an attractive box.  
Doesn't mean we can't still go to the movies,
Doesn't mean we have to hurt anyone's feelings

And this is not a play, I promise you,
Didn’t we talk the night away, wasn’t it obvious
If, after that, you realize we aren't as cool as you thought we’d be
Then we can vanish this whole affair

Just, please

Never say no to nothing (unless it's going to get you nixed)
And even then, choose your danger instead of blowing out this fire

I saw you see me across the room
My mouth is dry and I can’t find the words
And I still have no idea what the hell I’m supposed to do
Other than never say hello to you
Arrian Luiten
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