You say it's alright
But I know its not
I want to crawl
Into that of a ball and melt
From this figment of reality...

Things not meant
Seem to tear me down 
For this 
I apologize...

As you laugh it off 
The anger boils within you 
I want to cry as 
I hide among the shadows 
Of my room 
Wishing to die 

Upsetting the one 
Who saved me from my torture of 15 years 

I fear 
That dread is the only thing near