I'm awake again when I shouldn't be,
My eyes are studying the landscape of the ceiling,
Picking out pictures that come to breath and pulse,
In the darkness I can see the green glow of the planetary system,
I wonder if even survived that cold December night,
This happiness in my chest will fade away soon.

I see where I lay,
Under a sea of covers,
And I reach for the water but I’m sinking into the mattress,
I know where I’m going,
It’s going to be far, far away.
From today, I say,
“I’m alive, December.”

Would you believe me if I told you,
That I saw Saturn last night?
It was three a.m. and I was hating myself until I recognized it as it stuck to the ceiling.
Far away the ceiling goes as well the glow.
It’s okay cause if I am alive,
Then I can survive tonight,
I know just from memories that things will turn out okay,
Things are coming up sunny for me,
But for now my eyes are trapped on an ocean of green solar systems.
Forgive me for getting lost in myself.
I know it’s selfish, you don’t need to remind me.

I see where I lay,
Under a sea of covers,
And I reach for the water but I’m sinking into the mattress,
I know where I’m going,
It’s going to be far, far away.
From today, I scream,
“IM ALIVE, DECEMBER!”