I want to go home
I scream at my bedroom walls
Wondering what I mean
For as obvious I am
In that of my physical house
Wondering
Where must I go 
How far is home
I cry myself to sleep
Wondering if I'll ever feel complete 
I shake useless thoughts out of my head 
As the dawn approaches
Staring out at my dark stricken sky
Wondering why
I must awake another day
I throw myself into my bed
Crying my tears 
For the unknown
And the missing
Sometimes wondering do i just need to die
Shaking this from my head 
I speak the words I must survive
Yet all appears to be a lie