This isn't for anyone
As my words are my tears alone

Dreams flood my mind
All of these times 
I can't wait for this that
Or the other thing
While my mind speaks another dream 
I want to die
To feel the slice of a blade upon my neck 
As a necklace of blood lies there
Say I need help 
And all this
I try
It hasn't done any good
Beyond reversing to tear open old scars
I'm tired of living
In a world where a sight of the day 
Is another person's drama
It's like going to a theater 
And all that's playing is some 
Person Snapchat Instagram or personal story
I'm tired of not fitting in
Ever heard of the story of
The extrovert 
Turn introvert 
Well news flash we aren't all silent 
Dead do speak
Dreams tell our stories 
As people say what a shame 
And break us further 
I'm tired of being told I'm to blame 
That there's this tiny switch in my mind
That can turn it all off
That I'm broken and can be fixed 
See the abusive father who was is 
The least of my issues 
Which no one ever understands 
I say this and its like deer in the headlights 
I want people to be themselves
I'm tired of all these
Masks
Facades
Why is all I ask
So yes 
I'm broken in the eyes of humanity 
I'm torn to the shreds of a monster 
Those eyes are what form 
That blade of my dreams
That will finally slaughter me