I'd tell you that you're not allowed to react
I'd tell you that I'm petrified of what I'm about to do
I'd tell you that I'm sorry for not telling you sooner and for telling you at all
I'd tell you that I love you
That I have no idea why
Just that you make me smile and laugh and want to be there to see you smile and laugh and see your eyes light up when you're talking about something you love
That I love the way you're there for me by unknowingly easing my pain
How a simple message from you gives me butterflies
How seeing you every once in a while makes me giddy and nervous until I'm finally with you, even just for an hour or two
That being with you for that time let's me forget about my issues because your smile would be more important

You have no idea how much I wish my random messages would make your day or even a minute of it
How I wish you could talk to me about anything and everything
How I wish I could be your everything

But i know that's wishful thinking
And even if it wasn't, I'm not sure how to be in a relationship anyway... so I guess it probably will never happen...
Just wishful thinking, that's all this is...
Right?