I feel my hearts gone cold and I get it / you wear your heart on your sleeve for long / and they forget it / wake up to the same tune / nothing different / only memories of when she told you that you were gifted / that moment in your heart when you felt lifted / but now the winds have passed and memories now you miss em / now you're at the bottom with a disease you knew you had / the same one that took your grandma and almost your dad / the one you hear about / silently creepin / your lack of motivation / not enough sheep to count to get you sleeping / sometimes I talk back to them voices / see a man like me has ran out of choices / I used to ask God why I was a sad Baby / never got an answer so now it drives me crazy / I often think to myself "what will tomorrow be?" But now tomorrow is what I don't wanna see / I hide behind the tears of a clown / as long as y'all laughing / I could say I brought a smile to your face / when all I had was pain / behind the smile on this face.