the muchness of people only starts to bother me when I don’t feel like enough And I wish I could honestly say it was all your fault the way I sometimes act like it is but I know my agression and annoyance is only a response to the emptiness A need to feel something and it comes out as attacking and I belittle you and make you feel small knowing it won’t make me feel bigger or better only more bitter at the way that you love. The way that you look at me through soft eyes when I’m ******* you The way you feed me when I take and take and purge it all back up and say it’s not good enough to appease me Your patience when I’ve pushed you away with rolled eyes and locked jaws I can hear you silently standing up for yourself Knowing you deserve better Kinder Softer
I know my soul does too
These clenched teeth have snarled and growled I hope I’ve never bitten you But your hands are so giving and so forgiving So long and gracious and always outstretched towards my cheek as you turn the other one away from me
The sweet Venus fly trap of life
in these words I hope you find wings or tenderness I would open my jaws and set you free if you ever asked but you are the sweet flypaper in my life and if the roles were reversed, I wouldn’t have a reason for leaving