I feel like my world is crashing down
like I’m the strange girl waking around
like I belong nowhere
I feel like everything is wrong
I’m sick of everything
I’m sick of putting up a smile I don’t mean
tired of not being able to talk
I wish I was the one that was gone
I feel like I’m out if control of everything
not even being able to cut open my arms I want to but I don’t want people to see it
it would be just one pain that I could control
I’m so tired of everything
I don’t know what to do anymore
I miss someone I could talk to, to the real me
I don’t even know who I am anymore
I feel like I hate myself
I want this to end
I really just want it to be over
I don’t want to hear my brother scream anymore
I don’t want to see my mom unhappy anymore
and I don’t want to see her in any pain anymore
and I want my dad to give me u hug and say I know your not fine
I want my little brother to grow up  in a different place
not like this
like screaming people are normal
like the smell of **** is normal
like all this stress is normal
because it’s not it can’t be normal