People say that its the good parts of them that make them scared.
But for me, it's knowing my darkness exists and that I haven't reached the bottom of it.
Knowing that I am slowly descending deeper into that pit.. that seems never ending
To know that if i continue that journey, I will be the hurricane that rips my home apart
To know that even though i hate how I am, I don't know how to change for the better
The daunting knowledge of knowing what the most likely outcome of life for me will be..
Too busy and alone
Too desperate to call, text or phone
Too broken to know