How do I let go?
How do I move on?
It's only been a month
but seeing you or hearing your name
still puts a knife in my heart
I love you
I hate you
...am I to blame?
Why wasn't I good enough?
What did I do to deserve to be forgotten?
To be betrayed?
distractions help
friends make me smile
but when I lay my head down to sleep
or let my mind wander
I find myself wanting...
you.
Despite it all
I still want you.