He was slowly drowning in air He was fading away and he just didn't care He knew somewhere in his heart There had to be something better out there Just out of reach, forever denied him ...or maybe not ...or maybe not
I recall we were friends He and I raised some hell in the old days At least I thought we were friends He bought me beer and I gave him a ride home He told me stories how his daddy would break down How the old man had laid a burden on him Something he never could tell anybody How the pain brings a serious change He knew, he said, from a very young age He was cursed to be curious, different and strange Perhaps that's why we got along so well Both of us taking solace in each others' personal hell Each others' highway to hell Adjoining rooms in our different hells
There was a moment. There's always a moment. He would think of every day for the rest of his life It would haunt him until the day he chose to die Some will say that he didn't even try Some will say everything he ever said was a lie ...and I sometimes think those people are right ...and I won't deny it
A scarecrow hanging from a rope in the bedroom Moon shines through an open window Bathes the crow in the gleam of the moonlight's glow Swinging back and forth as the spirit breeze blows Just a scare crow, not so creepy But what's it doing in the bedroom? I gotta know I gotta know
The title is from a lyric in the Joy Division song "Isolation" (from the album Closer). Words by Ian Curtis. If you don't know Joy Division you would do yourself a favor to check them out. This particular lyric came to me immediately after writing the piece and I thought it seemed to somehow fit the content of the poem.