[on seasickness]

my father saw his first ghost and his first UFO on the same day    

-

canoe

of heartbreak

a wound

is

-

a fish
occurring
to fish

~

[tooth musics]

I patch my son’s nightmare with the shadow of a fish

-

Cain
had a sister

he wouldn’t
****

-

raise mosquito
the lost earring
of christ

~

[existential passivity]

sister
a loneliness
for which
I was framed

~

[removal musics (xv)]

whose purple thumb is found in a grey ball of yarn
has remembered
every baby

~

[removal musics (xvi)]

have you written slowly enough for things to happen?  lovely

wrist
I will eat
what is there.  a flower, a clumsy

angel

touching the nerve
of a ghost

~

[reading]

inside
an apple
by the light
of a tooth

where nothing
has belonged
to god

~

[starlit]

after staring all day at a birthmark, father asks can he wear my glasses. done growing, sister breaks her nose. shadows mother from birdbeak to mudmask.

~

[stopping to pray]

how angelic
the nervousness
of insects
offering acne
to god

/ to glacier, crow is not
yet a thing

~

[removal musics (xvii)]

those first animals
were angels
who’d either
slept
in their clothes
or caught
god
eating

/ has memory
always
denied
being young, do I look  

shape
like death
is an idea

shape is waiting
to have…

~

[cont’d]

I am tired of being curious. what I mean is my son is cheering for a photograph. what I don’t mean is you can’t drown a ventriloquist. here is what I remember: his body bouncing around inside the ambulance as if the ambulance wasn’t there. what I don’t

is that first, that invisible, pill.

~

[moth to moth]

a shadow
a ghost
lost
to drugs, hey

you wanna
later
touch
the blood
with bug spray, if

say our stomachs

have the same
mother