The words tumble from my lips before I can stop them.
I’m sorry.
He tells me to stop apologizing. I – catch myself before I say it again.
I don’t know why I feel compelled to offer up this utterance as a surrender when I’ve done nothing wrong.
It’s become a habit that I can’t break, this expression of contrition where no sin is apparent.
And so I wonder...
What is it I’m apologizing for? If it’s my words, why can’t I own them? If it’s my actions, why can’t I back them? If it’s myself, why can’t I love me?
I mean what I say. I trust what I do. I like who I am.