Two days before:

I leave to meet my biological sisters
In a different country
For the first time
I find out you are getting married.

For the last two years:

I have struggled
Attempting to learn how to live,
Instead of just survive
Without you.

Too often:

I feel as though I am just existing
Surviving...
Until the day I die.

Today:

I left the country
Now I am back.
Back to just existing
Waiting...
For death.