and i'm still in love with you. you are burned into my brain
you are aching in my heart you are locking my throat closed and i'm still drowning out at sea
11 days later
and it still feels like the first the first hello the first joke the first picture hug kiss tear ache goodbye
11 days later
and everytime i see you i feel a crack in my heart no really you'd laugh if i told you you always laughed.
11 days later
and i'm still stuck in the web of words you caught me in i hate you for catching me
11 days later
and i can't help but stare i can't help but run into you or i can't help but wander in hopes of maybe seeing you and falling into old patterns of hello i am and hello we are and hello hello goodbye
11 days later
and you look great you look better then ever great
11 days later
and i forgot your smell i forgot the deep colour in your eyes i forgot the way your hands fit around my waist i forget your laugh and look of confusion when you don't understand not really but maybe writing it would transfer the memories and i would i would forget
11 days later i'm not sad don't tell me i'm just sad i'm not sad i'm just living a life inside of this body i'm not sad
11 days later and it's all your fault you lied and lied and i believed again and again and my paint is smeared with tears and my body is aching all over and my floor is holding me up while my body lay restless ready to move to 12 but after so long why can't i and why are you okay on 11 but i
11 days later and my friends are tired i'm tired we're all tired
11 days later the doctors sealed up the wounds they put in a cleaner heart and removed all my tears i look new, don't I?
11 days later
i don't feel it anymore i still can't listen to love songs but numb is okay i disagree but they told me it is i told them i'd rather hurt than feel absolutely nothing at all