he's like a disease
stuck in my mind
his constant abuse
yelling in the back of
my brain

i cut and tear
and pull and
try to rip it out
drain my blood
and give to others
in hopes to create
something pure

i just want
the words gone
i don't want to
listen to this abuse
anymore

it's been two years
since i've left him
so why can i
still hear it

i thought that
maybe if i cleaned
my insides
the words would
disappear
but

they haven't and
some days
it ruins me