I remember it all

Heart racing
Clammy skin
Muscles tight
Insides coiled

Screams stuck in my throat
Bile churning in my stomach
Tears filling my eyes
Fists ready to fight

I was frozen
Like ice
Like a statute

Something
Touching me

Unwanted

Feeling like a caged animal
Thrashing against the chains

Wanting to have my soul
****** out of my body

But I did nothing
I said nothing

And with every
Brush against my skin
It felt like knives

But I would have preferred the knives

And with every
Movement inside me
It felt like death

But I would have preferred death

Death would have been easier than this