I obviously wish I always was a good person, who did good things and make great decisions but that's just not the case, even though I want it to be. Sorry. I'm being so redundant again...I guess this is just one of my many defense-mechanisms.
Things when from pretty good to pretty bad pretty **** fast today; it all started with an argument with my little sister...I don't see her much and we just clash negatively these days. So much crap in my head.