It’s so strange To watch you turn up every morning When you swear every night that you couldn’t go on for one more minute How is it that You want something so badly That you just narrowly escape everyday It is miraculous how you beg for her to touch you, even gently As she forces herself upon countless others It isn’t your time they would likely tell you And I know you would sneer Because what do they know about time Or your time especially But I don’t think you realize The intensity of the blackness That you toy with Your restless body that you can’t keep still for even a moment Completely motionless And the reality of death Is so much less of an escape than I think you had hoped for The images of your wasted body Will remain with the people you leave behind And your legacy Though it will be tragic Will be very awkward and often silenced And your very realness will be buried with you A fraction of your history will consume your story A generic message of hope And remembrance will become you All the poetic waves of your thought Will be dwindled down to nothing And whatever permanence you have left behind in your absence Will be misunderstood and deformed Into something else, far from your own
A poem to my best friend during a very dark period in his life, and in mine.