although the air was completely still my body quivers as if a small wind were stimulating my nerve endings
I lay silently as I process the events of my past grabbing me into a hole of darkness where all my innocence was lost and all my purity taken
as if it were occurring now you were near me again so real I start to push your phantom hands off my legs as I kick the sheets to the edge of the bed
I toss and turn as my body rebels again and again against the actions that never should have taken place but did...
your eyes piercing gray and your breath hot on my neck you watch me as you lean in to kiss me goodnight the only thing missing was the smell of alcohol staggered under the musty smell of your unbrushed teeth of the day
as if every moment that had taken place was occurring at once I leap up from bed attempting to silence the screams in my head screams I never screamed when I should have....