I don't know what to call this I don't know where I've gone All I know is the waves are getting higher And they never come back down I'm adrift amongst purposeful ships Clear for everyone to see The solitary, turbulent vessel Struggling to stay afloat, to find my bearings in the open sea I've forgotten where I came from A bustling port of distant memory Though even if I could recall it Bring back those warm, sweet memories, I would not be able to bring myself home to face it Alone, ragged, battered from the high seas. I'm far too ashamed of my failure, of my grand aspirations which have abandoned me I've little to show for my efforts I've little to offer to those who believed in me So I carry on, alone out on the open water Adrift and unsure, Trying to find my next harbor Made all the more difficult, as my gifts have started to fail me I don't know which way my compass points Which way is true north? How do I sail south? My anchor is starting to rust and decay, My sails have grown heavy with salt water I've lost ropes, barrels, and panels to the ocean Been plundered by philandering pirates, (been beaten, cut, and abandoned by them too) And of course at this point my navigation's shot- My wheel no longer spins, My star chart is damage beyond repair I'm left floating Between waves On waters smooth as glass On waters made to shatter
My ship, my self, in waiting Waiting For the next wave to crash For the next tide to carry me For a current to pull me For the stars to reappear For something to take me home Or better yet For something to take me where I've never been