Saying you care as you pin me down,
As I sink you tell me it's what's right,
Sunken in and sunken under,
Can't catch my breath,
Can't find the air,
All the while keep saying you care,
No hand directedΒ Β my way,
Not one fault of how your
Life turned out this way
should be mine; but look,
Look here, yes I am the one you blame,
Push me down and kick me out,
Still, you never let go,
Suffocating and regurgitating,
In everything I've come to know.
You won't leave my side,
But it's only for your own good. Not mine.
Laying and withering while I need you the most,
When we recover it never is over for us.
Before I can begin to lift my chin
To the sunlight, you pull me back under,
And you pull me back down,
Your helping is hurting me.
Forcing me into your rhythm and rhyme,
Striking me with sound and with song.
Repetition and refusal to hear me,
How can you not have the courtesy,
To at least look into my eyes,
While you destroy me and deny me?
One thing I ask,
Let me have one last daydream,
Of my own rhythm,
The rhythm of my feet, drowning
you out, to not hear your voice.
All I am asking is let me run free
I don't want to be you,
I want to find me.