Sitting still as stone
Darkness crowds around
Eyes set in a stare
Upon the glowing screen
But these eyes aren't watching or paying any attention
These eyes are far away
This mind is no where here
It's lost in the past
Wishing those days were now
No explanation of why it isn't anymore
Never did I think it was gonna be a past
I truly expected us to be one forever
I blame the distance
The time spent apart
It just isn't good for the heart that way
Feelings fade
I need to be with you to feel
Without you I'm numb
You need to refresh my memory
I can't be without you
I thought I could
At first it was hard
Then it became unbearable
Then.... A confusing state
Like.. Why aren't we talking
Then a feeling of nothing
Like it'll be okay
Give it time
But then it just feels wrong
I feel lost
Given up on
Forgotten
Not worth fighting for
Or acknowledgeable
Wishing for an explanation
But I kno what you'll say
But I tell myself I shouldn't assume
Ill be honest and say I'm scared
Because I think I've lost you
And I really don't wanna accept that
If it would be a true fact
Idk what you're thinking
Or who you're talking to
But I feel like I'm not on your mind
And I feel like you don't wanna talk to me
So I guess this is just how it's gonna be and I'm not sure why
Yes it hurts
Having an explanation would probably hurt worse
Cause it's probably all my fault like always...