I’ve never learnt to like you . Like a kid who took Commerce and Found herself doing a Physics course. And pain physically courses through my veins Cause you and I have no chemistry. And there’s no science behind Your lack of affection It affects me . Dad, I’ve never learnt to like you .
Dear Dad.
You’ve been around my whole life and All we’ve ever played is hide and seek . Like it’s some kind of sick game and I’m tired of being the seeker. See I’m still trying to find you Cause you’re so absent in your presence. Counting up to my age to remind myself that Each year , I still seek . As if I wasn’t the one who was Lost . As if I wasn’t the one who was Hiding.
Dear Dad.
I am in pain. It’s as though you’ve cut me off and it Literally cuts me deeply . Like you’re the blood that leaves my body Whenever I’m hurting and you never ooze Long to say goodbye. Helplessly dripping. Leaving emotional stains in the home you’ve Left . Until you dry up and demand to be Cleaned up .
Dear Dad.
This is your daughter speaking . And if I could make you understand I wouldn’t Be attempting again. I’d do a live show with you alone as the Audience. And I’d hope you clap so loud that your Essence would echo . So the vibrations would be enough to Silence my sorrow.
Dear Dad.
I’m not your biggest fan . But I think love you . And I hope you do too .