I take my tongue between my teeth and bite down hard and taste the blood and hope that I have killed my voice.
I take a rock from the creek behind my house and I raise it in my left hand above my right and bring it crashing down to shatter bone and hope I have stilled the urge to grip a pen or scrape letters into the dust.
I take these words and let them fill my mind and pray that they drown out these howling voices that say that I am killing myself by removing my ability to speak.
I take my head between my hands βone crippled, one wholeβ with dark blood trickling from my mouth and