Please, understand I did not mean for this to happen
I did not want to leave you
I did not want to lose you
But I was mad
I was crying
I had the music as loud as it would go
I was driving as fast as I could
I was screaming his name
I was holding my stomach
I was remembering that night
The force of him pushing me down
His voice echoing in my head
His voice growing louder as he got mad at me
The pain
Forcing myself to go numb from the inside out
Forcing myself to ignore his request
I remembered the bruises on my body
The way everything changed me
And how you didn't believe me
When I told you
And now I flash to the moment
The rain coming down hard
The sound of the music conflicting with the tires on the pavement
And then, no sound of the tires on the pavement
Wind rushing past me
The impact like a wall
And then nothing.
The tests after the autopsy showed it was his
And it's funny how now, and only now, you believe me
But it's to late
Please, understand I didn't mean for this to happen