the last of the words you said flow in a fountain of sorrow
colors lie to my eyes
deceitful and contradictory
i prove undeserving of the life they bring

had i accepted my inhibitions with complacency, you would have felt no pain
regardless of intent, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
shallow and ungrateful am i
cynical and critical

so much of my love has begun to rot
anger and sadness have shackled me to the floor
i lie in the sun, naked and bloated
"you're just not ready"

my stomach is riddled with anxious sickness
i avoid confrontation within myself
my heart yearns for health
my soul longs for a tender love

one that life may never bring