acquaintanceship is hard when the two of us have more faces that spit fire from tongues silenced too long twos company fours a crowd the night we met you called me a gemini ***** i entangled those words in my mind funny that that was the night i wanted to hang myself i'm not that bad anymore but it reminds me that i long for people who damage me a "build me up to tear me down" deal lies the secrets i've spilled to you on drunken nights are used as icepicks in the cold dwelling that is my soul i know you have it too you told me about the things that haunt you .
you don't ask me how i am anymore today i walked out of your room and you didn't look up when i left and yet you're happy enough to parade me around a travelling circus a freak show until the clock you wear on your wrist beeps and suddenly, i'm not convenient .
i know you're at war with yourself too i've been enlisted in my own militia for as long as i could talk i have scars on my body from all the times the soldiers in my head decided i needed a reminder of what they're fighting .
why don't you ask about me? i bend backwards for you until my spine snaps but you tell me it's only a fracture .