Just sitting here laying in the bed
Can’t focus
Got so many problems crying inside my head
Long night
Well my day will be longer
My jetlag and regret just continue to grow stronger
As I grow older and my nights are even more cold
I don’t know what’s darker a cemetery or my soul
I wish I knew how to cope
I wish I knew how to get it off
I wish I knew that life wasn’t gone be ****
I guess I’ll just eat another lost
******* still hoeing but I’m paying the cost
For respect
But still consistent neglect
I want to embrace a check but instead
I just hate my ex
And sit in my room and cry
Then ask what’s next
Get over one obstacle just to hope the best
And then that check turn to an x
Like a 45 to ya chest
*** can I expect
After 21 years of ridicule and disrespect
That’s why I come so vicious and at ya neck
So if you come to me COME correct
You don’t know **** about me to assume your comments as direct.
I may act perplexed but really
I’m just being you in full effect
See people don’t like when you become the reflection of what they run from
I don’t run
I lived my life through so much ****
I eat a loss and whomever threw it
Ain’t never gone be mad, as long as you look me in my eye when you do it.
NOT a soul has.
All comments shall pass
And worthless opinions
Keep them , they won’t last.
Can’t eat no more *******
I must fast
Maybe ain’t praying hard enough
That should always be the first thing to do
And never the last.