I dont want to live yet i dont want to die
I cant seem to laugh i cant seem to cry
Its like my life has paused only time is only going By
How can i be alive but feel so dead
Emotions but emptyness running through my head
Im just waiting for the end but still continue to hold onto hope
I keep climing every hill but fall with every  *****
I pick myself up but constantly falling back down
I suddenly feel a smile things start to turn around
Changing so quickly my smiles lost within my frown
I start to climb again but stumble down and fall
Deppression starts to set in
Hope is no more
Surrounding myself with a 50 foot wall