im writing this for me. not for you. i’m writing this for me to know that the amount of kind things you’ve done for me will never amount to the hurt you caused me. at the time i didn’t realize. i was too in love with you to actually realize how you were treating me. to realize i deserved so much better.

i don’t think you know what you did. or in what way you hurt me. i understand that. if i was in ur situation i wouldn’t get it either. because i didn’t voice my thoughts opinions. i don’t want to go on a tangent about what you did.  it was just the little things. but even the big things i oversaw. i was so naive. and for a while i was so angry at myself for that. maybe i still am angry at myself for it. but you taught me to see through people’s *******. you taught me that if someone treats me the way you did. i know they aren’t worth it. i know i deserve so much better than you. and i know one day i’ll find someone who treats me like i’m everything to him.
you were everything to me. but you didn’t see that. u didn’t see that i would do anything in my power to make sure you were happy and always smiling, laughing.

this is my goodbye to you. my goodbye to all the thoughts the sadness the anger. you’ll always be in my heart. the happy memories we made will always be in my heart. you will always be my first love. thank you.