Apr 2018
It actually has been a long time since I've been here.
Sitting down, putting pen to paper.
So much has gone on and happened. A couple of months and perhaps years have gone by since I've opened my mind to this avenue.
We've been through a fair bit you and I. We've seen, heard and experienced so much in such little time.
I know it's clichéd and lame, trying to make sure it all rhymes...
stays the same...
I guess it's finally clicked in that this season is over, my skill has fade-d a bit, my knack for writing has reached its end. I guess I'm at my last wits end - trying to make sure words fit.
But in all seriousness, for all intents and purposes I suppose I'll start...
with the real reason why I'm actually here. I guess it's in the silence that all this happens, where it all begins. It was in the silence that I first met you. A season it was where it was just the two of us - mostly one-sided, I spoke - you listened. For the most part I only sought you out in times of trouble, for the most part...
when i needed someone to talk to...
I was selfish then - I'm not so much anymore
You talk a lot - you always have I guess. You're much more wiser between the two of us. I suppose you do have years and years more to offer than I do, but nevertheless I forget this fact more times than I care to admit.
You have been my rock, my shelter, my comfort and my Shepard - like a lamb I have followed you (without even knowing it for the better portion of my life) like a puppy I have loved you - like a child I have forgotten you
But I have found you again. You have always been here, waiting for me while I went my own way. You have always loved me while I loved others and sought love elsewhere. You have always considered me while I forgot you and placed you in the attic of my mind.
But here we are, walking together again - the dust blown off, eyes set, the path straight
It seems so much simpler now doesn't it - my days are brighter, the lurking shadows around me have dissipated and I can finally breath deeper
deeper and deeper as I walk with you
Sitting down, putting pen to paper.
So much has gone on and happened. A couple of months and perhaps years have gone by since I've opened my mind to this avenue.
We've been through a fair bit you and I. We've seen, heard and experienced so much in such little time.
I know it's clichéd and lame, trying to make sure it all rhymes...
stays the same...
I guess it's finally clicked in that this season is over, my skill has fade-d a bit, my knack for writing has reached its end. I guess I'm at my last wits end - trying to make sure words fit.
But in all seriousness, for all intents and purposes I suppose I'll start...
with the real reason why I'm actually here. I guess it's in the silence that all this happens, where it all begins. It was in the silence that I first met you. A season it was where it was just the two of us - mostly one-sided, I spoke - you listened. For the most part I only sought you out in times of trouble, for the most part...
when i needed someone to talk to...
I was selfish then - I'm not so much anymore
You talk a lot - you always have I guess. You're much more wiser between the two of us. I suppose you do have years and years more to offer than I do, but nevertheless I forget this fact more times than I care to admit.
You have been my rock, my shelter, my comfort and my Shepard - like a lamb I have followed you (without even knowing it for the better portion of my life) like a puppy I have loved you - like a child I have forgotten you
But I have found you again. You have always been here, waiting for me while I went my own way. You have always loved me while I loved others and sought love elsewhere. You have always considered me while I forgot you and placed you in the attic of my mind.
But here we are, walking together again - the dust blown off, eyes set, the path straight
It seems so much simpler now doesn't it - my days are brighter, the lurking shadows around me have dissipated and I can finally breath deeper
deeper and deeper as I walk with you
I wrote this almost as an exercise to get back into the habit of writing again and all of a sudden I found myself opening a dialogue with the Lord through it. I feel like the Lord has done such an inner working in me over the past few days and weeks and He has definitely brought me closer to Him. It has been so great being able to allow Him to work in me - and as a result I feel I can walk in so much freedom and strength and I am so excited to see what else He has in store for me!!
