it's much easier to appear unphased
than to admit that the walls i put up inside my being
have morphed into open windows
am i still vulnerable if it's only internal?
looking at you sparks an unsettling amount of familiarity inside me
and i know if i allow myself to fall prisoner to these urges -
if i don't refuse these emotions that keep surfacing,
i will end up creating yet another home out of a person who has no room for a permanent resident.