I’ll hide here,
In this lush forest
This wooded area
The trees
They hide me
Much easier than a smile does
I can scream
And not be heard
But I don’t want to be heard
I just want someone to understand me
I want someone to listen to me
I’m screaming out in agony
I hope nobody can hear me
Because they would be scared
The words in my mind
Are different from my words heard
Or my words written
I’m surrendering
Hiding behind the word *****
My mind throws at all of you
I’m not sure I want to die, exactly,
I just want to be reminded that I’m alive
To know that I can feel something other than the constant pain inside
I’m burning all of my bridges
No, I don’t want to
I didn’t plan this
And now you’re hearing my voice
Singing songs
That nobody knows
Because nobody ever wrote them
Maybe
Just maybe
If I hold my hands up high enough
I’ll become a tree, too.