death
is
so powerful

. . .


the soon to be, death of a loved one
has changed my perception on life itself
and how venerable we really are

it has changed the way i feel about his last months alive

and now, i sit here writing this, still trying to decide whether the choices i've left myself with are really worth it
. . .
becuase they seem impossible

and soon he might be gone,
and ill be left with that
empty pit in my stomach,
thinking about all the things i never did with him,
and all the small moments that could have been something
life changing


ill be left with so many
drowning thoughts
and im scared that i will
suffocate beneath them