... And how you spent weeks holding off the plan on calling your dentist for your next appointment.
Because a ‘hello’ over the phone,
Is already enough to swallow you whole.
Sometimes you wonder how,
Could you ever survive in a huge crowd.
Because on most days; going out seems like a bad dream coming true.
And doing grocery shopping with your sister is not as fun as it used to.

But they told you that it’s temporary.
Someday, you will break free.
From all the strings that you couldn’t recall being attached to your numb body.
But you wonder,
When will someday be?
When today you panicked when the ice cream worker at the usual ice cream parlor asked you,
“What flavor would it be?”
You ended up getting a brain freeze.
And you left without the ice cream.

It’s not just a person who you could avoid.
It’s not a ghost you could call help for.
Not the clothing item that someone gave you for your birthday that you shoved at the back of your closest because it does not seem like something that you’d wear.
It hangs around.
And they say that it wouldn’t last.