I am no longer afraid of death
And so I am not afraid for my own sake
I don't care if I'm in pain
Or if I die
Anymore

At least as far as I am concerned
I am more afraid of hurting people
Emotionally
Mentally
Physically
That is my only fear

I don't want people to
Cry because of me
I don't want people to
Die because of me

It would be better, I think
If they were ignorant of my issues
Or merely indifferent
Instead of caring about me
Which will only cause them grief

I am not the kind of person
Who will live a long and happy life
I am not the kind of person
Who will grow old

And since I am scared of hurting people
I'm terrified of being a burden to them
Sometimes I think it would be better
If I wasn't here
Anywhere but here
Or if I didn't exist at all

I feel like a part of me is missing

h.f.m.