they say lying is a kindness
and i always tried to be kind to you
but i'm no good at keeping people safe
so i only told you what was true

i didn't think i could do this alone
and some days are harder than most
but i'm muddling through
as you pale, in my mind - a ghost

it was no ones fault
yet i beg forgiveness in the dark
to hold you close, one last time
the only thing i'd ever ask

i think i lost the right to ask for anything a long time ago